Thursday, January 12, 2017

My best friend and my life partner.

Hello readers ! I have not been in a writing mood lately in case you guys have not noticed.

With great sadness, I want to tell everyone that my life partner lost his battle with pancreatic cancer in December. He started a downhill decline since about the summer of 2016.

Thankfully my partner was able to reconnect with his immediate family before he left this world. Also two of his brothers from West Virginia even came to visit us in November.

One of my first memories of us was when we were just friends. We were walking inside of the grocery store and he grabbed my hand and held it ! I was appalled ! I did not know what he thought he was doing. Now readers keep in mind this was before I fell in love with him. After we became I couple I would constantly apologize for that incident. I never let myself live it down. My partner was sweet about it and said it did not hurt his feelings too bad.

I started falling in love with my partner when I got to know his heart. His best asset was his heart of gold. He always wanted to help others. My partner tried to see the best in people.

When I felt like I could do not do something my partner always believed I could do anything I set my mind to. When I felt like I was not pretty enough my partner would tell me I was very beautiful. He was my biggest supporter !

It is bittersweet for me to go to the places we used to go together. I miss him like crazy ! It hurts the worst when I wake up at night and he is not by my side. I am thankful I still have Bear and Garfield. When I feel very bad I use my coping skills.

My partner gave me the best years of my life. I am scared to navigate the world without him but I know it is possible. He will always live in my memories, my dreams and in my heart !! <3 <3