My
euphoric state of mind was quickly changing. There was a battle in my
mind between good and evil. I was mentally exhausted.
It
seemed like everything was a message from God. Shows on the TV. Songs
on the radio. Flyers. I felt like God was sending instructions
especially for me.
I
believed I was Mother Earth. That all souls belonged to me. Being
guardian of souls I knew the devil was ruling the earth. I was on a
mission to take back all of my children.
Sounds
kind of like a movie doesn't it? Well I was living it for real. These
events did not require imagination. I was living them.
I
was home with my FL best friend's Grandma. I became convinced that
Grandma was possessed with a demon. I took my bible and tried to
pressed it to her face to get rid of the demon. Needless to say she
locked me out of her room.
After
that I walked for a few hours to a popular mega church. I thought the
pastor was the devil in disguise. I was ready for a showdown.
It
was getting dark. Nobody was there. I walked around the church
looking for a way in but all of the doors were locked.
I
spent the night outside at the church. I was waiting for something to
happen. I started reading the bible out loud. I was hoping all souls
would return to me.
In
the morning I walked back to my best friend's house. I knocked on the
door but no one answered. I decided to break in through a window.
My
best friend calls my older brother. He comes over and they try to
calm me down. These two are not my older brother and my best friend.
They are clones trying to kill me. I break free and run away. I must
get away.
I
run like the wind. They can not catch me on foot. Soon they start
following me in the car. Sometimes they would pull up in someone's
drive way and I would run through peoples' yards.
Apparently
they called the police on me. A lady cop stops me and I end up
sitting down on the ground. She begins to ask me questions. I explain
that my older brother and my best friend are trying to poison me. The
lady cop must think I am on drugs because she asks to see what is in
my purse. All I had in there was the bible and a few pieces of candy.
The
lady cop and her partner put me in the backseat of their cruiser and
drive me to the hospital. Next thing I know I am lying down in a bed.
A doctor comes to look at me. I see an evil look in his eyes. I take
my bible and try to press it against his face. They end strapping me
to the bed and I think they gave me a shot.
Not
long after I am escorted to the mental ward. One of the patients
tells me she is God. Another patient tells me that she is Eve. First
lady created by God. Eve tells me there are a few dead people
following me. I tell them to leave me alone! Everyone in the mental
ward seemed completely normal to me.
As
soon as my dad hears whats happened, he, my step mom and my little
brother are on their way to get me. My family travels on an eight
hour drive from Mobile Alabama to Orlando Florida to bring me home
with them.
At
this point I am still a bit delusional but more stable than I was
before. My older brother, best friend and two close friends come to
help me pack my things. I am thankful to see my friends come to say
goodbye. I was only slightly sad because I had no idea that this was
a permanent move. I thought after I got better I would be back in
Orlando after a few months.
This
is my first psychiatric breakdown. I am okay for now but this is only
the beginning. The doctors told me I had schizophrenia but I am too
disoriented to be phased by it. This mental illness is just starting
to control my mind.....
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