Hello
readers ! I have not been in a writing mood lately in case you guys
have not noticed.
With
great sadness, I want to tell everyone that my life partner lost his
battle with pancreatic cancer in December. He started a downhill
decline since about the summer of 2016.
Thankfully
my partner was able to reconnect with his immediate family before he
left this world. Also two of his brothers from West Virginia even
came to visit us in November.
One of
my first memories of us was when we were just friends. We were
walking inside of the grocery store and he grabbed my hand and held
it ! I was appalled ! I did not know what he thought he was doing.
Now readers keep in mind this was before I fell in love with him.
After we became I couple I would constantly apologize for that
incident. I never let myself live it down. My partner was sweet about
it and said it did not hurt his feelings too bad.
I
started falling in love with my partner when I got to know his heart.
His best asset was his heart of gold. He always wanted to help
others. My partner tried to see the best in people.
When I
felt like I could do not do something my partner always believed I
could do anything I set my mind to. When I felt like I was not pretty
enough my partner would tell me I was very beautiful. He was my
biggest supporter !
It is
bittersweet for me to go to the places we used to go together. I miss
him like crazy ! It hurts the worst when I wake up at night and he is
not by my side. I am thankful I still have Bear and Garfield. When I
feel very bad I use my coping skills.
My
partner gave me the best years of my life. I am scared to navigate
the world without him but I know it is possible. He will always live
in my memories, my dreams and in my heart !! <3 <3
